I'm very HAPPY now

This is the thing i love the most when i'm out in the club... Have to thank "Jeff" for buying the whole box for us... Heehee... I'm a " HAPPY GIRL " today... He did and say many things today... I'm so "SHOCKED" today la... Haha... But honesly saying i like it when he does all this... Hahaha... I feel that he is the cutest when he is drunk... I'm happy that it rained so heavily today cause we spend time together and because of he's drunk... I fall asleep already but still waiting for his call cause his house is flooding due to the rain... K la... XoXo

I'm feeling giddy

My nose bleed very badly again when i was on the way home in the cab just now... I think i scare the cab driver to death... My clothes and my face was filled with blood... Haha... I sneeze and blood came flowing out... I think my mummy will bring me to the doctors later cause she scared i got nose cancer... This isn't the first time already... Haiz... FML... What if i really got nose caancer... Hmmm... What would i do for the rest of my days before i die?? I would travel,spend time with the ones i love and drink every single night... I'm losing my patience waiting for him to come online already... Don't know where the hell did he go... He is pissing me off... I shall not get angry or else blood will start flowing out again... When to the Opening of Grand Hollywood just now... The place is nice but the singers like no energy to sing at all... Maybe it's because 1st day... But overall is ok la... Maybe will be going down today again if i manage to get out of the house... I saw a super tall and cute thai guy today at grand Hollywood... Hmm... Talk to him for awhile and his english sux big time... He was like speaking Thai to me... Hahah... I really look like Thai meh?? I envy Joeden so much... She's going to BKK later at 12.30pm... She is going over to look for her BF...Ticket she pay and all the expenses there he pay... So sweet of him la... I hope she enjoys herself there... When will it be my turn... I want to be like her too... I think i must wait till November then i'll know... But maybe before November i'll have a change of heart already... Hahaha... I shall not go Grand Hollywood so much or else i'll really have a change of heart very very soon... I must control myself... I MUST CONTROL MYSELF... Ahhhhh... Went to pick him up just now and downstairs got a big fight... Scare the shit out of me and the rest... A guy went to his car to get a short and small samurai...Luckily the bouncer stop him in time or else confirm die lo... I think i called him like 1,2,3,4,10000 times la... He still never answer... Keep ask me wait na wait na but dunno where the hell did he go... I shall stop here and post pictures... XoXo

A box of lollipops for us... Heehee... Lovess

My friend Joeden...

My brother Arty is back again... Swee

Debra happy birthday and she is super drunk... hahah

I'm feeling HAPPY today...

I dunno why i feel so happy today... We just finish talking on MSN... Even thou it was short but i feel loved... Haha... I also don't know why... Oh ya... He just send me a new song that they are practicing soon... I like the new song, cause it feels like a happy song thou i don't understand a single word about the song... Now i got a new thai song to listen too... Heehee... Actually i very heart pain cause he told me he's sick... Luckily i bought Panadol for him yesterday, at least he can he the medicine if he's not feeling very well... Actually wanted to say the name of the song here but don't know can anot so i better don't say first... Heehee... I love it when he says : " Love you na "... hahaha... Feel much love thou we didn't spend much time recently cause of some issues but at least he makes the effort to talk to me and webcam with me when he reaches home and finish showering... I feel so special and important to him thou our relationship cannot let anyone know... But at least there are 3 outsider + some other people... Haha... Am i lucky or what... hahaha... I everytime wish i could upload some or even 1 of our pictures up here but better don't la.. Later all those Kpossssss come and see my blog then i die le... I keep listening to the new song now... So nice la...I feel so happy listening to the song... hahah... I shall post a picture later... haha... I LOVE YOU stik ker... Hahaha... Such a cute name na... Haha... The start of the day is a good good day... I think everything will go well for me today.... Even if i have a very FUSSY customer today i also will be happy... He really brightens up my day... I'm feeling to happy till i cannot fall asleep... I don't know why i always have to throw my temper at him when he is nice to me most of the times... It's because i think too much already... I really can't read some peoples mind sometimes... Don't know why when "N" always drunk will show me attutide?? I didn't do anything wrong and everytime he looks at me he will ask me go find "B"... Oh i'm happy cause my cute brother is back from thailand... I can't wait to update him so many things la... He always cheers me up whenever i'm upset.. He does the belly dance for me... Just updated my iphone... Haven go explore yet... But looks quite cool to me thou... haha... K lah... I'm gonna end here now... Gonna go play with my phone... and listen to my new song again n again n again... Haha... Ok la... XoXo... I LOVE YOU NA stik ker

Feels so different now

Just reached home... Feeling a little bit confused and sian at the same time cause of someone... I don't know why i feel like that all of a sudden... Maybe it's because of what has happen last 2 days... Ever since we had the big quarrel about some matter, my feelings for him totally changed and all of a sudden i miss someone so much.. Even thou so many people ask me to stop liking him and i tried but in the end i'll go back to square 1... Just received a msg from him saying " He is sorry, he's not a good guy, make me sad everyday "... How to be angry with him la you tell me... He always makes my heart melts... Haiz... don't know what to do sometimes also... I'm trying very hard to be strong like everyone asked me too... But it is easier said then done... I know they meant well for me but what can i do and say... Oh ya... Just now got 1 idiot angry with me again... Why he everytime must like that when he see me with "HIM"... Honestly saying i really never did anything wrong to him before... Sometimes jealousy really kills people la... Oh ya... My brother Arty is back... Can't wait to see him la... Got so many things to update him... He can show me his belly dance again and cheer me up... Why do i always have to wait for someone... Why not people wait for me... I am always the stupid one... Wait and wait and wait... I'm gonna let go of him real soon... I've not much patience and time to always entertain and wait for him... I'm just gonna work real hard for my future and wait for someone to love me more then i love him... Can someone drag me out of this shit before i fall deeply into the trap... Many people always talk to me but it can't get into my stupid head of mine...  I think i'm gonna end here and wait for him to come on msn and chat with me... Haiz... Going back to square 1 again... Stupid Me

                                         

Confused...

So many things happen today, i'm reali very stress and confused at the moment... I reali don't know what i'm doing for my life now... Working everyday is so meaningless... Cause my life is so messed up now... Should i even bother to hear you explain all this things to me or even bother to listen what the other 2 person has told me bout you... I'm just life a zombie now... It's hollow inside me all this while... Oh ya... Recently i've heard a new thai song called " Kwam Kid " and i love it like hell... Damn meaningful la... I shall post the video below later... The song reali expresses how i feel inside me all this while... Why thai songs all so meaningful 1... Haiz... Why do i have so much patience for a person... I shouldn't be soft hearted anymore... Haiz... I feel like killing someone now... I also dunno why... Anyone also can don't need to be him... She keeps messaging me and tell me not to be angry with her and stuffs... I'm not angry... I'm just shocked to be kept in the dark... I never wanna be the last 1 to know about everything... I think i wanna change my hp number soon... I don't want anyone to find me... I'm sick and tired with all the nonsense i get from people everyday... I wanna go on a trip and get away from all this stuffs... I wanna work hard earn money and get of here... I'm just a fool all along...

Can't fall asleep

Feeling so restless now cause i can't fall asleep... Still thinking about what we were talking on the phone just now... Am i really that important to you?? Time Time Time... Everything takes time now... I love it when you are drunk... Cause you are so cute... Talking in a funny tone and saying all those sweet things to me... I always wanted to post pictures of "US" on Facebook but cannot... I hate it la... We got so many sweet pictures... Someone is coming to my house on sunday to take his things... Should i ask dear to come over to my house to stay on sunday morning after work... I don't want to face the person on sunday alone... Got an interview at 11.30am later so i dont want to sleep... If i fall asleep means i cannot wake up already... Oh ya... Just added dear on faceboook too... I have to learn to understand him more from today onwards... I don't want to disappoint him again... I don't want him to be sad over me, so.... I have to understand him... He is only working, nothing else... Listening to "When I Fall In Love" again... Hahaha... I just love that song so much... Ok my alarm just rang... Time for me to go get ready for my interview le... I have to find my way there also... Roxy Square here i come... Heehee... I MISS DEAR SO MUCH... Ahhhhh... I have to control my feelings... Never to put my whole heart into anyone anymore, unless i know that the person really loves me or even give up anything for me... Yessss... JIA YOU... I'll try to ask dear to come over to my house to stay tonight... Heehee... OK la... Got to end here now and got bath already... I shall not put make up later too... Wanna let my face rest... Byeeeee earthlings... XoXo

I'm having such a sweet night

I'm such a happy girl now... So cute la he... Drunk already call me and say he miss me and want me... Why drunk people so cute want... People always say : " drunk people always speaks the truth "... don't know true anot also... Drank so much today cause i was jealous that he hug other girls... But he came over to explain that, that was his friends... So cute la he... But i felt guilty that i threw tantrum at him... Heehee... But that was when i was drunk... Don't know whether he know that i'm still on the line anot... Hear alot of people talking in the back ground... Haha... But i don't understand a single shit that they are saying... Now i know how much he he cares for me and how much i mean to him... Heehee... I'm so happy... Had so much fun at V4 today... He keep asking me now why i don't understand him... I understand that he has to work but i still will feel jealous... I think i'm in " LOVE "... Hahaha... I think i'm going to stop here now cause i have to concentrate on talking on the pgone with my dear... Heehee

*I'm a happy girl now*

The picture above describes how i'm feeling right now... Heehee... Happy like a bird... I never felt so happy before... I miss the times when i'm in macau after looking at the picture above... *Sob Sob*... So much fun there... Had so much fun tonight at V4... Thou we went down late today but i really felt so happy today... " You happy, I happy "... I love this sentence so much... I love the way he gets jealous over little things, Love it when he ask so many questions, Love the way he showers me with care, concern and love... This is the first time that he ever message me saying he is worried for me... Keep asking me where i go and who i go out with... Hahaha... I love walking home with " You, You and YOU "... Haha... Had so much joy and laughter today as we walk home... Doing nonsense actions, shouting in the middle of the night and laughing together... All of us... haha... Never had so much fun for such a long time... I never regret letting go of *** ... Thats why my friends always says : " You will never know whether the next one will be better after you let go of the current one "... Didn't take much pictures cause i was busy going to different tables... I LOVE MY PEOPLE... Walk home with a super drunk person today... haha... After eating with them and walking them home... He went to say hi to a "MAID" that was washing a car in the private houses... Haha... Whenever i think of what happen i cannot stop laughing to myself... Ohhhh.... Ya i today saw the " Fat and cross eye women " (slaps my mouth 4 laughing @ people)... So damn funny la... I see her i also want to LOL... ***** keep saying i super bad lo but so what, she deserves it lo... I didn't get to listen to OK HUK today... Quite sad lo... I got to go sleep now cause got interview at 2pm... Good night earthlings... Heehee... XoXo

Me and me and me...

Me and Ah Boy 2

Pictures of Parties at Shanghai Dolly and Club trustz

Me and kelly at dolly

Kelly and erwin

Me and ah you

Me and Nana

Alvin and kelly

Ezen and kelly

Me and ezen ( my gay partner )

The crazy people

crazy people again

Pictures from the past at V4

Choke and Debra

Me and Ten... It's the past...

Debra and Choke again

Me and my sweetie

Erwin and Kelly

Me, Debra and Christine... My lovess

Debra and Ah Boy 2

The care and concern that you shower me with...

Me and Arty... My brother

Joden and Ah Boy

Jasmine and ok i really dunno his name... heehee

Evil band, band leader...

Choke and debra again... heehee... memories at Wan To Sek

A brand new start in my life

It's a brand new start in my life... I really love my life so much now... As i know who are the ones who really cares for me all along... I'm glad that i still have my sweeties in my life... I'm glad i choose them over everyone... I love my new tattoos... Haha... I can't stop doing tattoo now... I'm starting work in about 5hrs time and i'm still not sleeping at all... I can't sleep... Shitting Suns... I'm in love with a new song called " When i fall in love "... It's a thai song that is translated into english... Damn nice la the song... I have many many new friends now... I learn to open up and talk to people... I've so so many pictures to upload... Pictures of all the fun i had all this while... Love my life like hell now... Today went V4 again... Went to buy food at geylang lor 12 with someone... Love the thai food at lor 12... I've started drinking again... I also dunno why i start drinking again but i love drinking... Can't stop drinking now... If i don't get drunk everyday i can't fall asleep... Met a new friend last 3 days... He is a super nice guy name "Jek"... Have been in V4 recently hanging out with him... Today i walked home with someone special... Love the time we spend together thou it was damn far and hot lo but i guess that is the only time we really get to spend time alone... All the things you asked, said and do today really touches my heart... All the stupid actions that you are willing to do for me really makes me happy and touched... Thou i always show you attitude, you still willing to give in to me... Haha... I know la, i get jealous easily but it's normal for a girl to get really jealous... Anyway i'm still happy that you tell me about your past... I really don't know want to go work at great work city anot leh... Cause got another company just called me to ask me over to their company to work too... Is katong nearer to my house or Great world city?? Hmmm... I'm so confused right now... I can't wait for friday, cause jek invited me to eat dinner with everyone... Should i go, cause i scared i'll feel awkward... Hmmm... Shall consider... I shall upload the pictures i took today at V4... So much fun today... Heehee... Good night earthlings... XOXO

                                                  

My lovely ladies at V4... Last day so sad to see them go...

Ah Pek and Ah Boy

Ah Pek and Ah Boy again

My lovely ladies... Gonna miss them much

Ah boy dressing up as a girl... hahaha

Ah boy and My Xiao Cha Bo...

Ah choke and my Xiao Cha Bo...